What to do in an emergency
In our experience of working and supporting people with chronic pain, we have learnt that those who have chronic pain reach a point of desperation. At this point they feel there is no end to the suffering, they have become socially isolated, unemployed and left with a lack of professional and personal support. It is extremely common to feel you need to take action at this point, many result in self harm or suicide.
I (Lou), have been at this point myself several times in the past and I know at some point it will again get too much for me because I am human. I have lived the experience of those worst hours, when I am crying without tears as I no longer have the energy to shed them. When I am physically pulling my hair out from the frustration of not being 'normal' not ticking boxes. when I want to reach out to all the people who have repeated, call me next time, but, I can't because I don't know where to start, I feel like a failure, an attention seeker.
At these times of emotional suffering, it is so easy to listen to the negative sound track that runs on and on in my mind, however, through experience and investing time into understanding myself more I have come to learn the following;
They are thoughts I am having, they are not fact and I do not have to take action.
It is normal for someone with chronic pain to have these thoughts, I am not alone and I can take strength in knowing that I am normal.
It is not my fault, my body is not useless and neither am I.
If I distract my brain as soon as I hear the negative talk starting it doesn't become anywhere near as consuming, I put the TV on something / anything to make me think about something else.
Plus a major thing I noticed was, when thinking about it in a calm reflective light, I didn't actually want to be dead, I just didn't know how I was going to carry on in this pain.
If you have overwhelming thoughts of self harm or suicide, I know it will be really hard to reach out but please, I urge you, just pick up the phone and ask for support.
You can contact your GP surgery and ask for an emergency appointment
Samaritans freephone 116 123